Hey everyone I’m back! It’s been a long while, usually during the holidays I like to disconnect and spend time with family. This year I was fortunate to spend Christmas and New Years with cousins I haven’t seen in over 5 years! Instead of making New Year’s resolutions, I make New Year goals. My current goal is to overcome my fears. Fears of failure, fears of the unknown, fears of the past, fears of the future.
I’ve been reading a lot of books the last 3 months to start finally getting in touch with myself instead of distracting me from myself. In January I tapped into my inner child and read my favorite books when growing up. I read 6 books of the Junie B. Jones book set and 6 books of The Magic Tree House. What was initially a silly spontaneous purchase ended up being a challenge for myself to read as many books I can within a month. I managed to read 12 while also working a full time job and I am proud of that!
I listened to the audiobook of Discover Your Dharma: A Vedic Guide to Finding Your Purpose by Sahara Rose. Such a good read, I blew through this one within a week! Everyone has a purpose in life and discovering it is such a game changer for increasing quality of life. The Japanese call this Ikigai- the reason of being. Instead of just being alive, start living!
Over the last 5 years, I went from not really having any sort of goals or purpose to at least knowing what it is I want to do to help people in my lifetime. I thought life was just a big party, my motto was: live fast, die young. Today’s Meg cringes at 5 years ago Meg!! I went from abusing my body with alcohol and drugs to finally appreciating my body and treating it like a sacred temple. We have one life to live which is so short, why speed up death?!
In the last 3 months, I’ve learned immensely about myself. What I want in life, what I don’t want in life. This is my last year of my 20’s so I need to step up my game so I have a thriving 30s! 2021 is the year I come out of my shy shell. I show the world who I am without being scared of who I am. I’m so proud of who I’ve become, I’ve been learning the guitar, Spanish, I journal everyday (super super helpful for inner work), I got into pottery, I meditate and do yoga every morning and I am pursuing classes in Ayurvedic Medicine!
These are things “I thought I couldn’t do” until I got past my ego of negative thoughts, “nah just sleep in today, I can do yoga after work.” We all know the yoga after work never happens after a long tiring day. After staying consistent, my mindset has completely changed, now I WANT to get up in the morning and do yoga and I feel amazing when I do it. I’m so excited to continue my healing journey because there are always things as humans we can work on to become better versions of ourselves. After feeling stagnate and a lack of motivation, taking care of my mental and physical needs have bounced me right back!